Have you ever felt that everyone is against you? Well, I do. Right now. I do my best not to irrate my friends with how I feel for him, and yet the few times I do say something about it, they bite my fucking head off for it. Where is the justice in that? I don't understand where some of her (not singular, just grammatically correct) feelings are coming from on this. For the most part, I do not voice my opinions on him except to him. I tell him how I feel all the time, and maybe I tell him that much because I can't talk about it with Jordan or Alexandra or Becca, or maybe I tell him that much because I just can not stop telling him. :) Who knows? But I guess the point here is, I do love him and I do not want to irrate everyone by talking about him all the time, but I should not have to not talk about it. There should not be a problem with me talking about him, but, for some reason there is one. And I do not understand that.
I do want more time with him, but is that really a crime? I mean, I only really voice that to him and in my blogs. So, if my blogs offend them, why should I have to suffer for that? They are the ones that read it, I didn't ask them too and I certainly did not write it for them to go read it. As I have said before, my blog is where I get to rant about whatever is on my mind, and if I ever post anything I think they would be interested in reading (not often), I let them know that I posted something new. So, should the blame be placed on me for writing the damn blog, or on the one who read it?
Signing Off
5 weeks ago
1 comment:
*sighs* Sara i dont care about u wanting to spend time with him. and ur blogs dont offend me like u i just write blogs b/c i cant talk to some ppl about stuff even to zac. i wrote the blog so u wont get mad at me and i wasnt just talking about u and zac alot of ppl have been coming up to me with that. i dont care! i really dont. i have let go of him for u to have him. and i guess i desirve all this that ur giving me b/c i expressed my feelings on a website where eveyone can read it. but i also did that so that if yall DO read them that yall know how i feel on some subjects or whatever. i didnt mean to make you mad about the whole thing. what i was manly getting at was that i cant see Kels and at the time i wrote it i was sad, mad at parents, and wanting to hold her in my arms. *sighs* im sorry it sounded like i was mad at u but im not but i am mad that u took it the wrong way without really talking to me about it. i know u have some wise words to say but i dont want to really hear them now. things r really going down hill for me right now and right now i cant have u mad at me along with my parents. if u want to know how i feel right now just ask but since ur mad at me u probably dont care. again im sorry for the blog but i found out this site is the only thing that will get me to talk about what im feeling. im sorry............
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