Episode 22: My Own Piece

The world is a dark, hateful place and I am living in my own special piece of it. There is no sun, there are no stars or a moon. There is just me and my pain. Every breath I take is a challenge, a fight, and I am tired of fighting. What do you do when you know what is wrong with you but have no idea how to fix it? Being me sucks, and I don't want to be me anymore. I don't want to live in a place where you are reminded constantly of your short-comings and how what you are doing now could go bad later. I don't want to be in a place where I am forced to be someone that I am not. A place that when I do show the real me, I am told that I do not know who I am, that I am wrong and they are right about who I am. I do not want to be here, in this place of pain and darkness. I want to be in a place where the darkness is not one of malcontent and secrets, but the comforting nothingness that I once knew. I just want to run away, be somewhere else, anywhere else. Just run away and leave my problems behind me.....