Episode 28: My Cold, Lonely, Dark Soul

Ever been with someone for so long that you finally realize how permanent things could be and that scares you to the point where you start to find ways to get on the other persons nerves so He can do something to piss you off, justifying you leaving Him? I think I have come to this point. I am surrounded by those that love me, but I still feel as if I am the only one in a crowded room. I feel alone. I feel unneeded, and unwanted. And I know intellectually that I shouldn't, but in my heart, I do. I love Him, but I have no idea how to handle this. I do not know what to do and this frightens me. It chills me to my cold, lonely, dark soul.