Episode 27: Will you marry me?

Marriage. Every girls' dream, right? Not really. It may have been once upon a time, but the fairytale is over and I am not sure if it is the right thing for me. I may be in love with him, but do I want to spend the rest of my life with him? How do you really know if the love you are experiencing now is the real deal? I love him, I know I do.
It's just an extremly scary thought, eternity with one person. Which, it is interesting that I feel this way, seeing as I have a fear of being alone for the rest of my life. For someone with that fear, a guy that you are in love with asking if you would be with him for the rest of your life shouldn't make you fear that kind of commitment. I don't know what is wrong with me. I know he would stay with me. He has so far, even when I broke up with him to date someone else (Zac) and then came crawling back to him. He loves me no matter what I have said or done in the past. He loves me despite myself.
Maybe, just maybe, I should say yes to him. I do love him, and I know I don't want to be without him. I don't know though. Shouldn't it be obvious that if you love someone and you know that you don't want to be without them, that when they ask to marry you, you should accept? I think so. Maybe it was all too sudden for me. I don't know. All I know is, I do love him.